I Feel Dreary Dead Like. I Found Myself Crying At 10pm Behind My Brothers Car. I Saw Her My Brother's Girlfriend Almost Crumble Almost Cry When He Said In A Nasty Tone To Leave Him The Fuck Alone And All I Did Was Hang My Head In Shame And Touch The Wrist I Selfbranded A Few Days Ago Along With Hair Pulling I Ran My Fingers Over The Wrinkly Bandage As She Bit Her Lip, At That Very Moment I Realized I Rather Die Then See Her Hurt..I Realized She And I Are Alike..Seeing My Brother's Anger. I Worry She Will Become A Victim..I Cried Outside Cried And Cried I Vomited Purposely And Amediantly Felt Awful For The Puke May Have Gotten On My Oldest Brother's Car..When Everything Falls..It Seems I'll Worry About Is A Car..I Dream Of Inhalants Brief Flashbacks Of Times Of Fucking My Ex In A Parking Lot Bring Me To Shame..Make Me Feel Like Suffocating..We Often Want Wings To Get Away To Jump From A Building And Fly...Nothing Mattered..I Wanted Wings..In My Head I Flew Far From His Distorted Face Far From My Shame. Everything. I Went Almost 37 Hrs Without Medicine I Forgot..I Paid For It..My Moods Are Always Unbearable But Feeling Fucking High..Overly Happy Then In Minutes To A Fucking Break Down? I Still Feel Blurred I Barely Remember It I Remember Curseing Out My Friend's (Who I Developed A Crush On) ScumBag Guy Who Screwed Her Over And Hurt Her I Remember Being Blocked From Him On Facebook And Laughing She Was A Sweetheart And Blamed Herself For His Mistakes I Was Watching Her Sink And Finally Screamed At The Guy. He Deserved It. Even If I Forgot Everything Still. I Feel Physco All I Remember Is My Same Old Voice In My Head Waiting For My Purge Begging..Finger Down Throat Everythings Up, Crank Ipod And Regain Composure As I Enter The House. Iam The Big Bad Wolf Entering Places That I Shouldnt Go. A Invader.
Iam ripping my body apart allowing you to see whats underneath.
