How Its Done

Its Cloudy Like. I Had A Binge And Purge Today..When It All Came Out It Was Almost Like The Anger At Myself Left. Always. Found Myself Stealing. Scary Part Is I Probably Cant Stop. Its Twisted. Im Twisted..But The Roller-coaster Is Slowing Down In Time I'll Move Away From This..All I Can Ask For Is Time. My Brother Came Back. He Came Home, Then Left To Smoke Weed. As Usual. Its His Way Out, I Dont Care As Long As Hes Elsewhere..As Long As Im Not His Punching Bag..His Fucking Target Everythings Good. I Feel Happy Like, My Friend Flat Out Said She Was A Sex Addict So Shae And I Are Practically Beaming With Joy, Now I Wonder What Part Comes Next, I Tell Her That This Is Her Journey And No One Here Will Force Her To Do Anything, I Tell Her Tiny Steps ,To Compare Herself To A Drug Addict Finally Coming Clean, You Dont Cut Everything Away You Dont Randomly Say Im Done And Rainbows Appear Its Far More Complicated, You Slowly Edge Yourself Away From The Thing You Want And Start To Crawl Towards The Things You'll Wind Up Needing To Continue Life. One Day Maybe I'll Crawl..Maybe Iam I Just Cant Tell..Im Far From The Emergency Room..Far From A Psychiatric Hospital..Learning To Turn My BackOn Molly And Huffing.. Maybe Thats Something.

Tiny Voice.
In Your Head.
Louder And Louder..
Do You Hear..
Do You Fight..
Cover Your Eyes..
When It Screams Let Your Head Pound
Fluttering Eyes Come To The Dark Room
The Sink It Runs And Runs
A Ever Wonder..
The Finger That Slips Down Your Throat..
The Hacking..
And Gagging..
You Are Alive (Yes You Are Breathing)
You Are As Dark As A Basement
Darling Empty Out Your Stomach (Let Out Those Tears)